I am desperate for someone to help me. I will try to make this brief because I don't know how long I can sit here...then I will try to fill in later with anything I have left out.
I have been in constant pain for over a month. It was inconstant for a few months before that, but over the last month it has gotten increasingly worse until it became unbearable. I have just been through a nightmare in the hospital and I feel like I will be angry and scarred for a long time.
The pain started over my right flank...right where my kidney is...and is now still there but also in the front over the place where my liver/gallbladder are. They originally thought it was my kidney but now no one has any idea what it is. They are thinking it is the bones themselves that are causing me pain. I have had several upper abdominal ultrasounds, a pelvic ultrasound, a CT scan with contrast (the stuff you drink and the stuff that is shot into the vein), many many bloodtests, daily urinalysis, many x-rays...EVERYTHING is negative. I look completely healthy. I have gone from taking oral tramacet to oral percocets, baclofen ( a muscle relaxer), and naproxen. When I got worse instead of better I was hospitalized on Monday and given IV morphine. Apparently my veins aren't very good for getting IV's so I was changed over to subcutaneous morphine then up to sub-q dilaudid, through something called an ISCI. Nothing has taken the pain away...it always come back. I had to fight with the nurses every day to get my pain medication because they all treated me like I was some sort of druggie, or a wimp. I am a professional! I'm a registered nurse...I'm one of them! I feel so degraded.
I have given birth at home to 4 babies, with no pain medication, one of them was face-up which causes a lot more pain. I have a high pain tolerance...I would do that again in a heartbeat over what I am living with now.
I had a surgeon come into my hospital room the other day. I had just asked for more medication, so I was already in pain. My doctor wanted her to rule out bowel obstruction, which she did. She decided to inject long and short acting anaesthetic into the area in the front where it was hurting. I cannot explain to you how excruciatingly painful that was. I have always been able to control my body and emotions when I am in pain, but when she did this it hurt so horrible that I started sobbing and hyperventilating. Of course with my ribs bouncing up and down she couldn't do anything so she had to wait, holding the needle in there, until I could calm myself. Then as soon as she touched that sore place again with the needle, it would start all over, and she would have to wait until I could calm down again. This happened 3 or 4 times...I can't remember. Afterwards, I couldn't stop the tears for maybe half an hour. It took the pain away for maybe ten minutes and then it started to come back. She seemed to think there was definitely some inflammation in or around my ribs but has no clue why. She says she can't help me. She thought I should possibly be referred to a pain specialist, and be put on steroids, but my doctor doesn't want to do that yet.
My doctor agreed to let me go home yesterday, now that all the tests are over, because I have 4 children who need me around. I am home, taking long-acting morphine twice a day and short-acting every 1 to 3 hours as needed. I am still in pain. I am so desperate to get rid of this pain. My doctor assures me that I will become addicted to this stuff and that I will have to go through a horrible withdrawal period. I have never liked taking anything more than an advil.
If I get up, the pain is worse. In the hospital I could go all night without more meds because I wasn't moving. Sitting here is hurting right now, but I want to get your help. Getting up and actually "living" hurts so bad that I have to lay down again after half an hour at the most. I hate feeling this way, and I hate the thought of living this way indefinitely.
Please, someone, anyone...help me figure out what this is! I have another doctor's appointment on Tuesday. Until then I have to keep careful notes on how much medication I take.
Is there some kind of bone infection that does not show up on blood tests and x-rays? We are definitely looking at something to do with the bones. I have other joint problems that I've had since I was pregnant too, and now they're starting to think it's all related.
I will try to get back here later and answer any questions. I'm not feeling well at the moment so I have to go...the morphine makes me sick too.
Thank you...
Amy
I have been in constant pain for over a month. It was inconstant for a few months before that, but over the last month it has gotten increasingly worse until it became unbearable. I have just been through a nightmare in the hospital and I feel like I will be angry and scarred for a long time.
The pain started over my right flank...right where my kidney is...and is now still there but also in the front over the place where my liver/gallbladder are. They originally thought it was my kidney but now no one has any idea what it is. They are thinking it is the bones themselves that are causing me pain. I have had several upper abdominal ultrasounds, a pelvic ultrasound, a CT scan with contrast (the stuff you drink and the stuff that is shot into the vein), many many bloodtests, daily urinalysis, many x-rays...EVERYTHING is negative. I look completely healthy. I have gone from taking oral tramacet to oral percocets, baclofen ( a muscle relaxer), and naproxen. When I got worse instead of better I was hospitalized on Monday and given IV morphine. Apparently my veins aren't very good for getting IV's so I was changed over to subcutaneous morphine then up to sub-q dilaudid, through something called an ISCI. Nothing has taken the pain away...it always come back. I had to fight with the nurses every day to get my pain medication because they all treated me like I was some sort of druggie, or a wimp. I am a professional! I'm a registered nurse...I'm one of them! I feel so degraded.
I have given birth at home to 4 babies, with no pain medication, one of them was face-up which causes a lot more pain. I have a high pain tolerance...I would do that again in a heartbeat over what I am living with now.
I had a surgeon come into my hospital room the other day. I had just asked for more medication, so I was already in pain. My doctor wanted her to rule out bowel obstruction, which she did. She decided to inject long and short acting anaesthetic into the area in the front where it was hurting. I cannot explain to you how excruciatingly painful that was. I have always been able to control my body and emotions when I am in pain, but when she did this it hurt so horrible that I started sobbing and hyperventilating. Of course with my ribs bouncing up and down she couldn't do anything so she had to wait, holding the needle in there, until I could calm myself. Then as soon as she touched that sore place again with the needle, it would start all over, and she would have to wait until I could calm down again. This happened 3 or 4 times...I can't remember. Afterwards, I couldn't stop the tears for maybe half an hour. It took the pain away for maybe ten minutes and then it started to come back. She seemed to think there was definitely some inflammation in or around my ribs but has no clue why. She says she can't help me. She thought I should possibly be referred to a pain specialist, and be put on steroids, but my doctor doesn't want to do that yet.
My doctor agreed to let me go home yesterday, now that all the tests are over, because I have 4 children who need me around. I am home, taking long-acting morphine twice a day and short-acting every 1 to 3 hours as needed. I am still in pain. I am so desperate to get rid of this pain. My doctor assures me that I will become addicted to this stuff and that I will have to go through a horrible withdrawal period. I have never liked taking anything more than an advil.
If I get up, the pain is worse. In the hospital I could go all night without more meds because I wasn't moving. Sitting here is hurting right now, but I want to get your help. Getting up and actually "living" hurts so bad that I have to lay down again after half an hour at the most. I hate feeling this way, and I hate the thought of living this way indefinitely.
Please, someone, anyone...help me figure out what this is! I have another doctor's appointment on Tuesday. Until then I have to keep careful notes on how much medication I take.
Is there some kind of bone infection that does not show up on blood tests and x-rays? We are definitely looking at something to do with the bones. I have other joint problems that I've had since I was pregnant too, and now they're starting to think it's all related.
I will try to get back here later and answer any questions. I'm not feeling well at the moment so I have to go...the morphine makes me sick too.
Thank you...
Amy